Day 1
started off with the best intentions…woke up for class and had a breakfast of light yogurt and a banana. came home after my second class (around lunchtime) hungry for something yummy, so i had a smart ones version of spaghetti and meatballs. delicious, filling, thought it would be the perfect way to keep myself from snacking. I was wrong. got home from my third and final class of the day and proceeded to eat nearly half a box of banana nut cheerios without even realizing it. it left me feeling angry and defeated, because this loss of self control when it comes to food is really the root of my issue here. i start off every day strong, and fall apart by the end. now it seems like all i can focus on is the way i can feel my double chin and fat rolls on my stomach pushing against my jeans. i feel digusting.
i just realized that i never put anything about my physical appearance in the first post, and if i’m writing these “letters to no one” i feel like i should at least be honest. i’m 5’6.5, and not sure of the exact poundage anymore. My scale at home says 151.6, the scale at the gym says 154.2. I’ll be getting a new scale soon (probably this weekend) and can update this when that happens and I have a definite number.
I’m off to the gym to run my 5 miles now….the half marathon i’m running is in 24 days. wish me luck, universe. i’m gonna need it.
